Overcoming Benzodiazepine Addiction
List of benzos and what they are prescribed to treat
Estazolam (ProSom) Prescribed for insomnia recommended only short term use medium acting 10-24 hours
Published: August 2008
I am angry…
You made me believe you were the cure for my every kind of pain.
I had you wrapped around me while I let you take control of my veins.
At this point in time I didn’t know who or what you turned me into,
But you made it impossible to get through days without you.
You had control of my body now, and if I didn’t choose you,
you made me feel so sick to where I was helpless, not knowing what to do.
By now I started doing the things I swore I would never do,
lying and stealing off the people who didn’t mean a thing to you.
You had me convinced that throughout my life you were determined to stay,
that I did not have that option of turning and walking away.
Before you know it, everyone I loved saw this side of me that was hurting them inside.
Every time they questioned, I did what you taught me to do…lie.
I wanted to let you go and get you out of my way,
so scared to tell someone, imagining what they would say.
Don’t want to be judged, it was a decision I would have to make,
but I’ve wasted so much time; it was a little too late.
Being put in jail was something I knew it was going to come down to,
but it made me free of relief knowing that I could not get to you.
It was a struggle, but a worthwhile fight
because now I am in control and you are out of my life.
Being sober turned me into the person I’ve always wanted to be,
and that was the one day you were praying I would never see.
Now I am doing the good things I never imagined myself to do,
and proudly I can say I am doing them without you.
Published on March 2008
Well, it’s nice to finally meet you.
I’ve been waiting for your call.
I’ve noticed you’ve been crying,
And, I’ve watched you pace the halls.
Whatever has been hurting you,
I can make it disappear.
You know you have nothing to lose,
Nothing to live for, nothing to fear.
Thank you, for your invention.
I’ll be sure not to leave your side.
We’ll become very fast acquainted.
My naive child, there’s no use trying to hide.
I should probably introduce myself.
I am your very own addiction.
But, you can not be angry with me.
I am you own self-conviction.
I bet you feel rather stupid,
Falling right into my lap.
I’m a master at manipulation.
You’ll never escape my trap.
How does it feel to dance with the Devil?
For he and I are one in the same.
God, has completely abandoned you,
So, you might as well stay in the game.
Are you honestly going to try to beat me?
A useless battle if you want to know.
Go ahead and make an attempt.
Besides, I’m in the mood for a good show.
I guess, you think your special.
But, your sobriety has only lasted a year.
I’m still around every corner,
In the back of your mind
I’m your greatest fear.
I’ll always be your dirty little secret.
I won’t disappear over time.
Twenty years from now you may falter,
And, I’ll be the first thing that comes to mind.
A vicious cycle, that’s what your thinking,
But, I’m only speaking the truth.
I’m Satin’s weapon of mass destruction.
The silent killer of America’s youth.
It’s genius when you think of it.
Everyone’s looking for some Armageddon war.
But, what the fools don’t realize,
Is everyday Armageddon walks through their front door
America’s working class has been the subject of studies analyzing the large spikes in alcohol- and drug-related deaths over the last few decades, and churches and Christian-based recovery groups are playing a vital role in saving lives by helping people overcome their addictions.
“The church should have a role in helping people with any type of addiction. Depending on the congregation and their level of resources that help will vary. Some churches are taking an active role in developing in-house assistance and counseling while others that are not funded for this type of activity are partnering with people in their congregation who have a heart and vision for this type of ministry,” said Ray Perea, CEO and facility director of Revival Recovery Services in Apple Valley, California, in an interview with The Christian Post.